2016, was a tough year. Also, a breakthrough-limit-year.
There are moments that I would just lay down in my bed and get tearful. I'm not being dramatic. It wasn't just once or twice, my heart was really fragile throughout the year. I get sensitive easily. Most of my time was stressful (and lonely). Even tested with depression scale, I was categorized in moderate depression. Gladly, I'm aware of the things that made me depressive. At some moments I would regret being a psychology student, because then I knew how unhealthy psychologically I was all this time. But on the other side, I should be grateful 'cause it was an outpatient cure for me too. hehe. Guess it was part of growing up where I must hardly leave my childhood and begin to struggle for the future.
Every cloud has a silver lining.
Despite the hard times I've been through, there are memories that I am grateful of. As I said before, this year I have been (trying to) break through my limit.
As some of you may know, I don't really talk much with my friends or even in public. My grandma used to be a headmaster and a teacher, my dad is a lecture. And people (will) expect me to be like them in some way. Basically, both profession needs good communication skill (which I don't). I decided to participate as a co-trainer for the new student orientation in my campus. I do realize that it was pretty hard for me to spontaneously speak in public. I'm the kind of person which needs to write down a speech text the night before. But yea, at least I had an experience 'cause experience is the best teacher
I don't know what its gonna be like in 2017. I don't wanna hope for something too big and unrealistic. My wish and also my kind of resolution for this year is to be happy and make other people happy too. Bahagia itu sederhana,kan?
There are moments that I would just lay down in my bed and get tearful. I'm not being dramatic. It wasn't just once or twice, my heart was really fragile throughout the year. I get sensitive easily. Most of my time was stressful (and lonely). Even tested with depression scale, I was categorized in moderate depression. Gladly, I'm aware of the things that made me depressive. At some moments I would regret being a psychology student, because then I knew how unhealthy psychologically I was all this time. But on the other side, I should be grateful 'cause it was an outpatient cure for me too. hehe. Guess it was part of growing up where I must hardly leave my childhood and begin to struggle for the future.
Every cloud has a silver lining.
Despite the hard times I've been through, there are memories that I am grateful of. As I said before, this year I have been (trying to) break through my limit.
As some of you may know, I don't really talk much with my friends or even in public. My grandma used to be a headmaster and a teacher, my dad is a lecture. And people (will) expect me to be like them in some way. Basically, both profession needs good communication skill (which I don't). I decided to participate as a co-trainer for the new student orientation in my campus. I do realize that it was pretty hard for me to spontaneously speak in public. I'm the kind of person which needs to write down a speech text the night before. But yea, at least I had an experience 'cause experience is the best teacher
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Last but never least. I break through my physical and time limit with this team. So, we participated in this Acehnese dance festival in Jakarta. It was a really tiring month to practice almost everyday and night. I could actually call them home, but not really because when I'm with them I still have my mom telling me to come home. Ironically, we have anticipated to lose from the beginning (which we did lost). But yeah, the process we have been through was definitely an unforgettable experience. I learned so much, that we should never strive to win, but to feel satisfied with ourselves instead. We completely understand how we are different from the standards, but it just gives us satisfaction when we could give our best after all.
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I don't know what its gonna be like in 2017. I don't wanna hope for something too big and unrealistic. My wish and also my kind of resolution for this year is to be happy and make other people happy too. Bahagia itu sederhana,kan?
